[oh god, he killed the Signless. Killed him. Or at least helped, and oh god.
Gamzee's chest suddenly feels tight; he feels sick and unsure, and part of him just wants to push away so quickly from Darkleer that he is sure he'll go toppling right off of the couch. But at the same time, despite knowing that Darkleer had been complicit in such a horrid thing, that did not take away his feelings of fondness for the older troll. Those had grown over the past few months and even if it hadn't been easy to understand Darkleer at times, he had always been, more or less, kind to him and Equius.
And fuck. Seriously. What right did he of all trolls have to judge someone for culling a motherfucker? He who culled so many of his friends and was going to cull his own matesprit and fuck, he hadn't really deserved a second chance either, had he? But he had still gotten it. Wataru had still given him that. So who was he to judge if Darkleer deserved one or not. Especially when at least Darkleer had let someone go. He hadn't. He had just kept culling until Karkat's sickle had found the inside of his chest.
Swallowing hard, not really looking at either Equius or Darkleer, Gamzee tightens his fingers on the hem of his shirt.]
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Date: 2011-12-03 05:06 am (UTC)Gamzee's chest suddenly feels tight; he feels sick and unsure, and part of him just wants to push away so quickly from Darkleer that he is sure he'll go toppling right off of the couch. But at the same time, despite knowing that Darkleer had been complicit in such a horrid thing, that did not take away his feelings of fondness for the older troll. Those had grown over the past few months and even if it hadn't been easy to understand Darkleer at times, he had always been, more or less, kind to him and Equius.
And fuck. Seriously. What right did he of all trolls have to judge someone for culling a motherfucker? He who culled so many of his friends and was going to cull his own matesprit and fuck, he hadn't really deserved a second chance either, had he? But he had still gotten it. Wataru had still given him that. So who was he to judge if Darkleer deserved one or not. Especially when at least Darkleer had let someone go. He hadn't. He had just kept culling until Karkat's sickle had found the inside of his chest.
Swallowing hard, not really looking at either Equius or Darkleer, Gamzee tightens his fingers on the hem of his shirt.]
... why?